Currently Listening Rent (1996 Original Broadway Cast) By Jonathan Larson, Jonathan Larson, Tim Weil, Jeff Potter, Anthony Jackson, Daniel A. Weiss, Ira Siegel, Kenny Brescia, Dominique Derasse, Steve Skinner, Adam Pascal, Aiko Nakasone, Anthony Rapp, Byron Utley, Daphne Rubin-Vega, Fredi Walker, Gilles Chiasson, Gwen Stewart, Idina Menzel, Jesse L. Martin, Kristen Lee Kelly, Rodney Hicks, Stevie Wonder, Taye Diggs, Timothy Britten Parker, Wilson Jermaine Heredia I STILL <3 ADAM PASCHAL!!!! see related

Soo I am writing this for ethan...

the play went really well, minus the emo breakdown I had on sat before the play, because one boy in particular was to lazy to get off of his ass and help me find his star- apparently videogames are more important then the wellbeing of the play... yeah

so now that I have gone to school sick for a week adn a half because of the play, . Now I am out today and tomorrow- Bronchitis AND an ear infection, the ear infection was borderline dangerous because I waited so long to go to the dr.

Well I am off for now!!!

ttyl

Melissa

Okay, so here is one thing that grinds my gears

So I’m sitting comfortably in the big green chair in my living room with my Red PowerAde to my right and a bag of my favorite white cheese popcorn propped between my leg and the arm of the chair, waiting for the Sox vs. Astros game to begin… and suddenly as they announce the manager of the Sox a loud roar booms from the TV—no, no, it is not the roar you, as a Sox fan, would expect—it is a Roar of BOOING. Now, never in my history of watching baseball games have I ever heard this. Especially from the Sox fans; Now, I have no clue what possessed the Astros fan to boo but seriously it was uncalled for. As a sox fan, I have learned to tolerate the other team- to show good sportsmanship Obviously Texans never learned that (that can be easily shown as an example--- just look at our current fucking president… makes me want to off myself)

I know I grew up in a Catholic school but good sportsmanship was something that I had to learn on my own. As a matter of fact, now in my old grade school (the conference), at the end of every sports season, they award the school with the best sportsmanship, a trophy (and I believe that there is also a bit of funding for that sport for the next school year)

It is horrible that young children are exposed to this stuff. As a matter of face, I remember one particular time that literally made me sick. I was headed to walmart with my mom and it had been the day of a big Packers vs. Bears game. At the light post outside of the McHenry Moose Lodge, there was a man tied to the post with duct tape, wearing blue and orange (for those who don’t know it is the bears colors) There were also 2 small children (ages of 3 or 4) that were holding signs that read “The Packers Fucking Suck Ass.” Now this is LITTLE KIDS

-See where this country is headed to?

It disgusts me the way that the Huston Astros both players and fans act.

Okay that is all I got on that topic for today

Yeah so today in religion, in conversation with Joe, it was brought up that he had quit crew… I knew that it was with encouragement from Army… Well the discussion got heated and I ended up making it clear to Joe that, because of his lack of participation last year because of his romances, I agree with Army 100%. Last year Joe sat backstage and did nothing, and consequently, things got screwed up. ROMANCE IS FOR OUTSIDE OF THEATER NOT INSIDE. IF YOU WANNA FUCK AROUND, KISS, MAKE OUT, OR DO ANYTHING OF THE SORT, DO IT ON YOUR OWN TIME NOT THE TIME OF THE CREW, TECH, AND ACTORS, BECAUSE THE LOSS OF ONE SECOND IS THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN THE SUCCESS AND FAILURE OF A PERFORMANCE. And I rarely saw him do anything… and since he has left, surprisingly things have gotten smoother.

Oh yea, I think I am gonna get the choice of seeing either Wicked or RENT for my birthday, I have no clue what to choose if I do get to choose. I really really wanna see rent but, with it traveling- it means that Adam Paschal isn’t in it and I <3 Adam Paschal… OOOO and I am going to write to Stanislav Ianeveski and see if, when I finally get the site up, he would allow it to become his official US site and provide me with periodic interviews and exclusive answers and the sort… Yup Yup, gotta love the wonderful Viktor Krum… and Cedric Diggory Rarrrrrrrr. That is all I have to say

Ta ta for now!

Hey everyone,

Long time no talk to... well yeah...

Soo lately has been really cool, I rebuilt the defy the Tyrannous Stars website and so far is has gotten a great start. I got 5 people (maybe more) in the last day since I started it. I am off to promote it in a few places so yeah. it is great, it is going to be great. We changed a few of the names and it is me and a new guy working on it this time, I trust this new guy, unlike the old guy. This new guy is nicer and seems cooler, and doesn't lie... oaky I've gotten that out. It took me a whole half hour to get it up... not too bad, huh. The only other one that took me that short of a period was the family one..

Well anywho, I updated the story on it and yeah it is great ya'll should check it out

gotta pop offline, hang tight

Currently Listening Rent (1996 Original Broadway Cast) By Jonathan Larson, Jonathan Larson, Tim Weil, Jeff Potter, Anthony Jackson, Daniel A. Weiss, Ira Siegel, Kenny Brescia, Dominique Derasse, Steve Skinner, Adam Pascal, Aiko Nakasone, Anthony Rapp, Byron Utley, Daphne Rubin-Vega, Fredi Walker, Gilles Chiasson, Gwen Stewart, Idina Menzel, Jesse L. Martin, Kristen Lee Kelly, Rodney Hicks, Stevie Wonder, Taye Diggs, Timothy Britten Parker, Wilson Jermaine Heredia I <3 Adam Paschal!!! see related

Alright, so I don’t type into this journal too much anymore. But when someone REALLY irks me, I feel I need to do this--- so recently I found the guts to finally tell the truth about the Golden Grobies. Now the greatest part to it is that no matter what I saw, they won’t even take the single second to take a second look at themselves, to see that maybe, just MAYBE those that stand out against them, are right. Now after what I finish writing here, I will attach the post that I made- I am unsure of how long it will remain on the boards or (at this point) had remained on the boards, but it is something that people find “offensive” well in all truth, the offensive nature of the post only comes from the fact that they area too “high and mighty” to take a second look at who they really are. Now as I write this I feel that it is necessary to mention that, this is all my opinion, though for all of you who are wondering, I have gotten plenty of e-mails, and messages, ooo, and even IM’s commending (praising in case you don’t know) me for the bravery and guts that I have shown by finally speaking out and doing what so many have been longing to do but yet, have been too afraid to do because they are afraid that “the Powers that Be” will crucify and come up with some B.S. to make a fool out of them in front of everyone. Well Congratulations everyone you have a savior! I am here and I won’t back down. If you have a beef with someone don’t be afraid to tell me and I will help. I dunno, I realized recently that I don’t have to worry about what other people think of me, that as long as I am happy with who I am and what I do, I shouldn’t have any worries. “You are not one of them.”- The caption on Peyton’s picture in The Pilot episode of One Tree Hill. As I write this, I am watching this, as a matter of fact just before I started this I was watching that exact episode and it struck something in me. I am not GG, never was, I am not a Grobanite, I am not a mindless teenager, I am not problematic, I am not any of the stereotypes or labels that anyone put on me. I am Melissa Susan Gatza, of Richmond, Illinois, who prides herself in her music, her works of writing and plays, as well as her performances, and volunteer work. One who is ecstatic about getting ready to go to college and completely pleased with my life.

I am in no way unhappy about anything in life. Things this year have been going better for me that I had anticipated. First I was made the Mistress of Costuming (Head of Costuming) for the fall play, which is the Diary of Anne Frank. I have great people in all of my classes, I have totally awesome friends who care totally about me, I have a great job and will possible be soon working a second, I am doing great in my studies, great on my weight loss. My health not so great but it is something I am overcoming, I have gotten rid of my depression and I am just B-E-A-utiful. I am not trying to stir up problems or anything like that, I am just here to tell the truth, the truth frees all and those who can’t accept it, well I feel very sorry for, it is their loss. Well anyway, I am going to leave you all with my words that “launched a thousand ships” (hehe, I am just like Helen of Troy)..

Alright... since all the GG's have posted on here telling me how wrong I am- let me say what I believe... remember- my opinion.

Firstly, I would like to state, that I find it sad that so many of you find it so hard to accept my opinion. And yes, indeed, I do remember Chicago. While all that was great fun, it was the things that have occurred ON THE SITE, AFTER that have resulted in the things that I have and am about to say. (And if you want to continue seeing things on this site with “rose-colored glasses”, then read no further or avert your eyes.)

This site has become of cliques. A clique, according to the Merriam- Webster Dictionary is “A narrow, exclusive circle or group of persons, especially one held together by common interests, views, and purposes.”
Now lets break this down so you all can understand (since you all insist on treating me like I am 2 rather than the adult that I am, I will do the same in return)

Here is how I will break it down “ (1), A narrow, exclusive circle or group of persons,/ (2) especially one held together by common interests/ (3) views,/ and purposes.”

Alright #1 in the definition, “A narrow, exclusive circle or group of persons.” This one is fairly obvious, a narrow exclusive group of female grobanites who allow or invite in only those that they deem “worthy”. Let’s see, I had to be invited to join before I was listened to. Sadly my mom was invited to join, did join, and then was ignored (real great group huh?)

Now #2- “Especially one held together by common interests.” This one is easly as well. All like Josh. Easy enough- but sadly, it gets over obsessive. It sickens me to see women who are old enough to be my grandmother Acting like children and pre-teens by defending Josh by making rude and immature comments to people who have their own views and opinions (i.e. The man who did the concert contest over the summer, which made a negative comment about Josh- after I read some of the comments, I literally wrote him an apology on behalf of the non-rabid grobanites, sad huh?,) and by speaking of Josh as If he is an object rather and a human being.

#3- “Especially one held together by common… views.”
Alright this one may get a little touchy with some people but *shrugs* getting the truth and the feelings, I have been holding within me for about a year, out feels good.
MOST of the GG’s hold one similar view, one that has become more and more obvious to me. It is that MOST (note the size of the word- so not all) view themselves and the group as better than others. Now I could go on and name all those people but… well… I have things to do this weekend and would rather spend all that time doing something useful to society (not spending all my time on here)

#4- “Especially one held together by common… purposes.”
Now this one is something that a friend of mine commentd on after reading some of the posts (this friend is a college junior who is majoring in psychology and human behavior) here is the quote provided in the e-mail
“… It seems to me that they say these things to somehow feel superior. I could go into depth on why, but the most plausible reason is that they are sick of feeling inferior or get a joy out of making people feel inferior- such as a bully would…”
Now note that the quote was my friend, not me.

Alright, now that I have gotten through that, maybe you can see a little more of my views. Sadly before I have even written this, I have gotten quite a few e-mails and PM’s from people who feel the same way as me and are glad that someone is finally standing up for the “little people” and that someone is not afraid to stand up. Out of respect for their privacy I will not mention the names unless they wish me to.

Another thing I would like to note is that I belong to many message boards- most of them with more active members than this one even has signed up (meaning active and non-active combined) and I have NEVER seen on ANY of them a single clique. Everyone gets along and is extremely accepting and welcoming.

Now I am going to respond to the personal attacks that have come my way on the “New Golden Grobies” thread

SandraKay said:
“Wow, Missie, that really hurts…”

Well it hurts too that you all deny it when all you have to do is read thru the thread with a non-biased view

” … Our group is MUCH bigger now and it is hard to give everyone individual attention…”

Yeah, loads biggest, I can totally tell cause, ya know, loads of different people post all the time- not just the same old ones from the beginning

Yeah Note: The above was SARCASM!

BrandyRN said:
“Wow, I am really saddened to see this… I went to Tanglewood not knowing anyone and I can tell you that the GG’s welcomed me with open arms and became my sisters immediately!”

Well CONGRATULATIONS! You are a CHOSEN ONE . My mom felt the same way when she came with me to Chicago- she even thought it was worth a subscription. She posted on the GG thread multiple times and each time she was ignored. Now all that comes out of her mouth when I mention this clique-hole (I am talking about FOJG for those of you who didn’t catch it) is “That was 50 dollars that could have been better spent- on something… useful.”


Now this one I am going to break down because it REALLY pissed me off

Joni said:
“To expect us to be superhuman is just a bit much, Missie-bear.”

I have NEVER expected anyone to be superhuman. All I wanted was people to be courteous to others by not ignoring or overlooking them.
See the manners that my elders taught me are obviously the ones that my elders here follow (I feel even considering you all as elders here is a FAR stretch)
Oh and DON’T baby me, I am nearly 18

“I am ashamed of you for what you said.”

Well good for you- I am proud of me for what I said- it shows that I am capable of my own opinion. On the other hand I am ashamed of YOU for trying to make me feel bad and my mother is ashamed of YOU for trying to act like my mother- which… hmm… wait… its coming to me… oo oo- YOU’RE NOT MY MOTHER. Don’t treat me like it. Only my mother has that right (though she does agree with me on all that I have said)

Oh and a side note- when I was being taught my manners, I was also taught to stick up for myself and NEVER let someone treat me the way that you have been- and if they do treat me like that, that I should stick up for my self anyway that I have to.

“Its nasty and completely unnecessary after all the wonderful times we’ve had together.”

Yes mother… Wait, oh yeah, you’re not!
Yeah we had that one great time together in Chicago which was a year ago, when was the last time you sat down and had a decent length talk with me- heck any of you?!

ggjoshfan said:

“We don’t expect and neither do we answer every time we post.”

Yeah but when multiple posts by one person go “unnoticed” (ok that is BS- the word is ignored) it says how “genuine” the group is

“Having a wonderful time instead of being home alone feeling sorry for themselves.”

Yeah so they are all home with their computers instead of helping better society.
See- when I stopped living on the site, I felt better about myself because #1- I was getting exercise and losing weight, #2- I was doing volunteer work and helping make the world better, and #3- I was hanging out with real, physical people, instead of words fragmented and transferred from one computer modem to the next.

Lracette commented on getting PM’s for her birthday and about extra tickets

Well I receive PM’s from some GG’s about negative hurtful things, that are cruel and horrible.

Pollyann said:
“If at first you don’t succeed, try, try again.”

I have done that, tons of posts have gone unnoticed- it doesn’t work- it’s not worth the time and effort.

Indaymen2 said:
“Missie!! That wasn’t a very nice thing to say.”

Who are you my mother?! Who or what give you the right to scold me or treat me like that?

THIS ONE IS MY FAVORITE

” The GG’s are the best.”

Refer back to #3
“Especially one held together by common… views.”

I close my case

Stargater said:
“ Missie, I always thought you were such a nice young lady. You have truly shocked me.

Nothing has changed, I just finally got up the courage to tell the truth that I hear from so many people

KaraokeQueen said:
“Yes, the thread is fast moving, and I've drifted apart from a lot of the members, and I do sometimes feel abandoned by them, but whenever I am in need they show their support, and that they DO still remember I exsist and that they love me.”

They may remember that you exist but do they repeatedly ignore your posts? They have done that a lot with me, I can pinpoint multiple times- days in a row when I am ignored. And MY MOM my god don’t get me started on that. And ya know it is all because of the “Queen Bee” (and that is another subject I could go on forever about) If she doesn’t like some one- it is amazing cause they are all of a sudden ignored for life.

So now that I have gotten all that out, I hope all you GG’s will take a better look at your group. As I sit here I am actually ashamed to have been even connected to it. The behavior by them also disgusts me.

If you have nay problems with what I have said don’t be afraid to post it here. My e-mail ( melissathegreat@gmail.com ) and PM are also open

And if you want to go to my mom and tell her what a “naughty girl” I have been, go ahead. Her e-mail is gforce00@juno.com